Welp, it’s lonely at the top middle and bottom

Okay ladies here is a life lesson you don’t have to learn because I’m about to tell it to you. Welp, it’s like this… it’s lonely at the top, middle and the bottom of a life’s journey.

I find myself really looking around , self evaluating as usual and realizing that despite being surrounded by people, I am lonely.

I am lonely for my own company. Like why do we need sometime to go to an event? Well because it’s boring as hell otherwise because I want to chat chat chat, but I miss enjoying things.

Things that I actually damn like doing! Usually, like the good little people pleaser I am, I go with the flow but find it really ain’t my flow!

How crazy is that? Most of the time I am so focused on making sure everyone has a good time. Who do I think I am? The empress fun monitor? As if! Ugh.

Some times you can really get on your own damn nerve when you realize how you’ve been behaving and that’s why it’s lonely.

It doesn’t matter where you are in your life’s journey. If don’t have, high SELF esteem, and gumption to just do what makes you happy, it’s over for you my friend.

Next thing you know, you’ll blog to the entire world with billion and billions of people to confess that you don’t enjoy myself going out because it’s never your own vibe.

It’s lonely to ride the vibe of others on any level for too long as opposed to venturing out of your loneliness by saying YES to yourself and NO to every one the hell else.

Let us do that together in thought but physically a part in distance because this is a self journey, not self and wish washy bff. Face it, this is were we found ourselves, and the cure is painful at first but they say rewarding in the end.

Did you do it?

Did you say yes to yourself today and hell no to someone else?

Do it.